I look over the precipice

daring to take 

a final step 

growing over the decay

creating a facade

hoping no one will notice

I’m crumbling from within

anxiety plagues 

my every waking thought

my every sleeping moment

all the moments I exist

all the ones I don’t

I can’t let go

fragile is my being

I break with little effort

bitter regrets, left wishing

for the strength to withstand

the ever blowing breeze

I look out

to the distant shores

and I wish

to be there,

where I envision 

change.

but knowing, 

the illusion

that distance creates

lost in a sweet reverie

before the fall

the insurmountable 

cast heavy shadows

in the darkness,

the light becomes blinding.

in the light,

the darkness becomes unknown.

never reconcilable 

fragments of my mind

dare to touch

the wells of hope

dragging me out of this

forlorn, broken 

hole inside me

I don’t want to see

the path that’s staring

right at me